Can You Ever Leave THAT Kind of Relationship?

You know, the relationship between yourself and your Baby Daddy (BD)--can you ever leave that? Right now, I am realizing that the relationship you have with your BD, or Baby Mama (BM--and yes, that's an odd abbreviation to use, and so, I will use BD throughout the rest of this entry), is something that's going to continue, for life. I'm reminded of that this weekend, as my sons' BD is coming in for the weekend, even though we're not getting along that great. On the other hand, I don't seem to be getting along that great with anyone these days. There's been a lot going on around the Gingerbread House lately, and not around the Gingerbread House.

I'm not exactly sure what's happening with me these days, but last night, we spent the night with Tish and she got out ye olde Tarot cards. One of the cards that I pulled was about becoming independent and self-reliant. Is that what's in my future? Is that why I seem to be repelling everyone these days? Or am I not really repelling anyone? It's so very hard to figure out what's going on, but it seems that having a BD who's active in my sons' lives may just make for a difficult time of having another relationship. Lovely.

I don't really understand what's going on in the relationship department these days. I'm not really sure even how to describe it.

But we didn't evoke spirits or anything using the Tarot cards last night, in case you were wondering. Last night had a very pajama party feel to it, which I totally appreciated and needed.

We talked about relationships and it's interesting how we both seem to be going through similar things in the relationship department, even though we're in very different relationship places.

I realize I'm not being very detailed with things right now. Maybe more later. We'll see.